This morning again I had to wait until 8:30am to start so the children had left for school.
I was starting again a little later than planned. I probably could have snuck past the kids this morning to start early, but I missed my chance and fell back to sleep after my alarm. This had frustrated me a little. As they left for school I set up quickly with essential oil and sat again on the chair in the front room.
I offered myself the chance to sit briefly, but my mind wanted to go straight into the preparations. I had been reading further last night, and this morning I wanted to add the goal of enjoying the session.
As I went through the internal preparation steps I found my attention drifting. The road nearby is being dug, so there was a lot of background noise going on. After a little wrangling, a managed to set the intention to remain focused well in my mind and went through the steps.
I then went to the step where I normally do a quick body scan. I took this slightly slower than usual. Today this had a good effect. As I noticed each part of my body in good detail without rushing I think my mind held the task quite well. Despite high levels of background noise. After finishing this, I started to concentrate on my breathing. I did ten counted breaths and began to settle on the flow in and out. Today I followed it with the words “in”, “pause”, “out”, “pause” to track the full cycle. Along with the words I made the conscious effort to remain aware of any sensations at the tip of the nose.
This normally took the form of the rush of air in, and the more subtle warm breeze leaving. Today this clicked well and for a long period, perhaps twenty minutes, I stayed with this focus. Other sounds and thoughts popped up regularly, especially in the early stages, but they remained bubbling away in the peripheral.
Last night I read in the book the further details about stage three. It seems that this would qualify as stage 3. I think I’ve had a few periods which could be classed as stage three. This is the first one I will tag though, and any future sessions which match. This period of good attention did fade out a few minutes before the end. I did lose the focus once briefly for a few seconds. When I bought it back the background thoughts and noises were becoming more interesting and I had a little impatience settling in. These background distractions carried on, although the focus remained it was not as stable. After a couple of minutes of this, I made a firm intention to concentrate again to the end. This seemed to really help, however, just twenty seconds or so after the gong rang to finish. I might have continued for a bit longer if I’d started early, but I had work to do now.
|Meditiation Type||Awareness of Breath|
|Meditiation Position||Seated Tall Chair|
|Meditiation Stages||Stage-2 Stage-2+ Stage-3|