As the rest of my family had one by one fallen asleep, I had the chance to meditate. I was hoping to do the same afterward! We were still on our holiday I went into the bedroom, and set up on the stool at the foot of the bed and tried to stay away to do the preparations.
I was very tired from swimming, I’d also not long had my lunch when I sat down to meditate. We got home, and the children had fallen asleep. I knew by far the biggest struggle would be staying awake. I’d had a coffee, but having had very little sleep and taken the children for a long swim and lunch this was going to be a tricky one.
I managed to get through the preparations and a body scan without too much bother. Because I was so tired, I kept counting the breaths. I was going internally 1 through to 10 and restarting. I was hoping that this count would give me a better focus. It did seem to help for a few minutes before the inevitable nodding off began.
I now entered a period I don’t remember all that well. In places, I was focused, but other times I noticed my head drooping and needing to be picked up. In some cases, the head falling may have been because I had just fallen asleep. Other times I caught things just before I nodded off. This carried on for about 10-15 minutes. I did manage to make a slightly firmer resolve towards the end of the session which gave me a few better minutes towards the end.
I was glad to have done this session if anything just to keep the practice ticking over. I hope I’ll be able to do a normal morning session tomorrow.
|Meditiation Type||Awareness of Breath|
|Meditiation Position||Seated Tall Chair|
|Meditiation Stages||Stage-2 Stage-2+|