As I was up quite early this morning, I had a quick coffee, read the book a little and started. Today I decided to start using a technique called “checking”. This is where you use some introspective awareness to check in with yourself and become aware of any distractions which might become a problem.
As I finished my coffee, I went into the room and set up my cushions. The candle for the essential oil finished before I had got started, but I decided to leave it out rather then relight it.
I had fasted yesterday and I still had not eaten. This may have been a factor as this morning my mind was very bright, which is nice, but also active with thinking. Having lots of mental energy manifested in a busy mind when I sat down to meditate. This felt quite different from my usual distractions which tend to be based on planning or an emotional event.
As I went through the preparations many quick thoughts popped in. Not unpleasant thoughts, just scattered, mostly planning and thinking about situations. It took me a couple of minutes to go through the preparation intention steps. I moved on to a body scan and this was also hit with many thoughts, I took it a little slow here and finally counted a few breaths.
I moved into the main breathing awareness session and the thinking was still present. I thought about using a strict commentary to label the breathing cycle, but instead, I was hoping to test out the checking-in technique suggested. As I went through I pretty much settled on breathing in and out with an awareness of sensations at the nose then resting awareness at the pause between breaths. I found that this was where the thinking normally started, in this pause.
I then tried a couple of things to help. I tried internally saying “pause” on the gaps, which did help a lot. After a couple of minutes, I decided that I would drop it, in favour of trying the checking-in and labeling techniques to reduce the distractions.
Towards the end of the sitting, I was aware of strong pins and needles and some physical discomfort. This lead to some restlessness, it felt a little different from the impatience which had been creeping in which felt grounded in the mind. This restlessness was a desire to get up and move the body. It was not able to last long though, as the gong soon rang to end the session.
|Meditiation Type||Awareness of Breath|
|Meditiation Position||Seated Floor Cushion|
|Tags||Checking Busy Mind Noting Fasted|