I was downstairs today about 6am which gave me the time to read for 20 minutes and have a coffee. I thought I would try to look again at dullness, as recommended in stage 3. The thought occurred that as it was a weekend, and very quiet it may be quite likely to show up again today.
I came into the office and set up with some incense instead of the essential oil and placed the box holding the stick a little way away. I set the timer and started to prepare.
As I started I noted some procrastination in getting into the preparations. I also ‘accidentally’ saw the timer while adjusting my posture and saw that this procrastination had been going on for nearly two minutes. I resolved to focus now and set out my intentions in my mind. This went quickly now, as I was already well aware of what I had planned.
Going into the body scan I took a slow and deliberate approach. This seems to yield good results and brings me calmly into the breathing. Finding quite a good focus today, I decided not to use internal commentary, just to use the awareness of the breathing cycle and sensations at the nose. This was enough and I found myself in a state of peaceful stillness quite quickly. This calm lasted several minutes. I would guess at ten perhaps.
I was also checking on occasion for the dullness I saw yesterday. I felt it was mostly always present but at very low levels. There was a pleasant sleepy space for me to fall into if I wasn’t careful, however for the session today, it didn’t have enough to pull me in.
The session did change in the later stages, thinking started to creep in and compete for my attention. Particularly the ideas of what to write here or teach others about meditation. I didn’t change my approach, but I did catch this process happening quite a few times. A little like yesterday, the mild dullness seems to coincide with dropped awareness of this thinking. Today I didn’t lose the focus though like yesterday.
Entering the last few minutes, the family had come downstairs too. I could hear them rummaging around and I was now impatient to finish and start my day. I expected the session was due to end soon, and after around four minutes of this it did, and I was glad to get on with the day.
|Meditiation Type||Awareness of Breath|
|Meditiation Position||Seated Floor Cushion|
|Meditiation Stages||Stage-3 Stage-3+|
|Tags||Still Body Busy Mind Impatience Dullness Procrastinating|