This morning I got downstairs around 6:15am and read for a short time while having a coffee. The house was quiet again, and I set up my cushions and added a little essential oil to the diffuser and lit the candle. On sitting down, I found that I was quite fidgety, and struggled to find a comfortable position
It took me a little while to adjust and start the preparations this morning. Having fidgeted a little on the cushions this morning it did ok when I started. I finished and moved to a body scan. This took around a minute and a half and I then counted a few breaths while holding full body awareness.
This seemed to be a good move this morning. Holding this full body awareness for a little while before moving into the breath gave a little extra grounding. Noting that my mind was a little busy I used the commentary “in”, “pause”, “out”, “pause” with the intention of later dropping this.
The session carried on like this for a while. There was some regular thinking popping up, trying to take my attention away, but I kept returning before the loss of focus. I was also aware of a slight dullness, which was no doubt due to some poor sleep in the last few nights. This was making my reactions to the distractions slower.
I tried something a little new today, remembering a visualisation I had used on Headspace, I imagined a warm energetic bright white light filling my body. On the in-breath, I imagined filling my body with this light. I imagined this energy filling every part of me. I did this for around a minute while watching the breath. I then returned to an exclusive focus on the breath, but without using the internal commentary.
It did take a couple of minutes, but I felt that the dullness did drop away after this visualisation. It had however been replaced by slightly more thinking. The passive checking process seemed to provide some benefits today, giving me a little insight into the state of the mind as well as helping to watch the period just before thinking could arise.
In the latter part of the session, the impatience that has often been a problem was not present. In fact, I was enjoying the calm, even though there was a fair amount of thinking on today. This seems to be a promising sign that the effort required to sit is slowly reducing with time.
|Meditiation Type||Awareness of Breath|
|Meditiation Position||Seated Floor Cushion|
|Meditiation Stages||Stage-3 Stage-3+|
|Tags||Dullness Busy Mind Visualisation Checking Relaxed Energy|