I had to wait to start for a little while this morning, the children both played their part in delaying my start. At just after 7:30am I was able to slip away and set up. I was feeling very tired and my body felt a little achy all over. As I set up my mind wanted to drift towards thinking about the day, or generally procrastinate in other ways.
It took a little while to stop the procrastination as I first sat down this morning. I have got a big pile of work for the next two weeks and how to start tackling it has been on my mind. I was also tired and a little achy this morning, so it took a conscious effort to get started.
After resolving to start properly the preparations did not take long. Like yesterday I wanted to concentrate on developing the introspective awareness some more, the rest fell into place quickly. I also had the expectation that like yesterday, my thinking might be quite excessive as this introspective awareness seems to offer a friendly place for it to bubble up.
I moved to a body scan for a couple of minutes then started breathing while trying to hold awareness of my breathing. I found that it was tricky to immediately get this going. I think that in the short term I may concentrate very closely on the breath and allow the awareness to increase once this is established.
The session was as I had expected. On one hand, I maintained a good focus on the breath, but I also had issues with much thinking interrupting the space where I was trying to keep this mindfulness of myself while watching the breath. A few times I went to focus even closer on the breathing and this seems to help. I think it could take some time to develop this mindful awareness to the point where it is fairly stable. I’m fine with this, but it does mean the practice is not as stable as it had been while I was doing some of the simpler techniques. I may try to sit for longer periods over the weekend to develop.
I also think dullness was also a factor in the distractions so I will try and get a little more sleep before these sessions.
|Meditiation Type||Awareness of Breath|
|Meditiation Position||Seated Floor Cushion|
|Meditiation Stages||Stage-3 Stage-4|