2019-04-13 10:01pm 1h Evening Sitting

Type: Awareness of Breath
Read Time: 2 mins


It was quite late in the evening. My girlfriend had just gone to bed and I was starting the first of the two planned hour long sessions.

I’d had a little coffee but was still tired. I set up some essential oil and put the cushions down in the front room.

  • Peaceful mind and more focus
  • Enjoy the session
  • Last the full hour
Possible Distractions
  • Thinking and Planning the day head
  • Planning this Journal entry
  • Seated on a pair of cushions on the floor - cross legged.


As I sat a noticed a sleepy dullness was present. My mind expertly procrastinated and it took a little while for me to finish the preparations. I eventually got going but was distracted by noises upstairs. I sat still for a short time listening to these and switched back to the prep. I finished these as above, but then my mind wandered before I did the scan.

It took quite an effort to do the body scan. I did eventually get it going and move to the breath. Here is got very heavy going. I struggled to keep the sleepy dullness at bay. In reality, I don’t think I was able to pay particularly good attention to the breath.

I tried a few things, counting and commentary related. These didn’t help like normal. After a while, I became curious that the bell had not rung. I had set the timer to go every 20 minutes but there was no noise. I was unsure if I was being impatient, or it was not setup correctly. As this was a new mode on my phone, I eventually gave in and had a look. This was showing 32 minutes. So I had definitely not set it up right.

I closed my eyes and carried on. There were quite a few clicks and pops and other noises around the house. The diffuser did make an odd crackle after a while so I checked on that.

Seeing that it was now 42 minutes, and I hadn’t heard the second timer, I set a new 15 minute countdown with rain noise.

This one did work. By now I had a slightly better focus on the breath. A little dullness and impatience were still present, but I didn’t suffer too much. When the gong rang I sat for a final minute or so before getting up. Glad to have done the hour. Will do the next one in the morning slot, and see how it differs.


Meditiation Type Awareness of Breath
Meditiation Position Seated Floor Cushion
Meditiation Length 60m
Meditiation Stages Stage-2+ Stage-3
Tags Checking Dullness Tired Impatience
Satisfaction Rating 5
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