I was thinking of deferring the session until this evening and doing an hour. I felt a little groggy but a coffee soon helped and I went into my office. As normal I set out on cushions and put some essential oil on.
As I started I noticed I was in a very similar situation to yesterday. I was able to follow the breath with a stable awareness in one ‘stream’. However, the other stream which I want to train to become ‘the watcher’ is very susceptible to thoughts and distractions. Much more so than when just watching the breath. I believe the book hints that this will happen.
I resolved today to just sit with this process. Many quick thoughts did come as expected. I found I was able to notice most of them quickly and without much change to the awareness of breath. I found the sitting to be relaxing and pleasant. The impatience I’d struggled with a lot over the past few weeks seems to have disappeared recently. In fact, when I notice dullness appearing I am actively trying to cultivate this energy a little to help increase the focus.
Today I was also fascinated to see if I could induce any ASMR while sitting. I found some very mild events, particularly on the in breath which suggested this might be able to be done. However, I can see that this might also become a big distraction. Something to watch out for in the next few sessions.
Anyway, after finishing I can reflect back on what felt like a pleasant, but very average session.
|Meditiation Type||Awareness of Breath|
|Meditiation Position||Seated Floor Cushion|
|Meditiation Stages||Stage-3 Stage-3+|