I’d had a bad nights sleep as the youngest is under the weather. I was downstairs a little later than I would have liked. I had a big coffee, relaxed for 20 minutes slipped into my office.
This felt like a very average session. There is not much to say, I did my preparation steps quite well, when I came to do a body scan I had a little thinking, but not too much.
As I started the breath, I had a good focus, the count was easy, easier even than yesterday which was a much more enjoyable meditation. Along with the two counts to 40, I made an effort to use the introspective awareness to watch over the process. I found there was a dullness today, probably from being so tired, which detracted from the sensations and awareness. This checking helped me refocus several times, so it is starting to develop.
After the two sets of 40, I switched to just using this introspective awareness to be aware of the breathing sensations and count. This is where the thinking crept back in. I think without keeping my mind busy counting, it is much more able to wander, especially when it’s already tired.
As I write I’ve had a new idea for how to counter this, as it’s been the same for the last few times I practised this way. Instead, I will go straight into the breathing with just awareness. Every time I notice I am becoming distracted I will then do a count to ten. After that, I’ll switch back to plain awareness. This feels a better way, as it’s adjusting to the session, rather than following a strict path. I hope I remember to do this tomorrow!
|Meditiation Type||Awareness of Breath|
|Meditiation Position||Seated Floor Cushion|
|Meditiation Stages||Stage-3+ Stage-4|