I had had a broken nights sleep. It took me a while to drift off, and I was awake again at 5am with the youngest wanting milk. It was broad daylight at 5am, and even with the blinds down, the room was too bright for me to sleep. After laying comfortably for a while half awake and asleep I decided to come down around 5:45 to meditate. I read for a little while first, before setting up with essential oil in the office.
I had started a fast and did not eat since early afternoon yesterday. I felt this hunger this morning more than normal. Upon sitting I was quite glad to be meditating, but couldn’t get the posture just right. I was a little dull, but this probably helped me sit still.
After the preparations and a body scan, I decided to do 5 breaths, counting after the out-breath, each time I noticed my mind starting to become distracted. This proved fairly effective today, although I might go back to doing 10 counted breaths each time I notice. The longer period of counting I think will help to complete the re-focusing.
Towards the end, for the last few minutes, some impatience crept in. I think this is probably just as I’ve let myself get a little out of the habit. Thirty-five minutes can seem a long time again. I’ll try to be up early tomorrow again. As I’ll still be fasting, it’s likely I’ll be awake early with energy.
|Meditiation Type||Awareness of Breath|
|Meditiation Position||Seated Floor Cushion|
|Meditiation Stages||Stage-3 Stage-3+|
|Tags||Fasted Dullness Impatience|